Something really hit me today. I graduate in about 218 days. I enter the real world is less than a year. This next year things are really starting to count. Part of that scares me. How do I know I'm ready for something that big? But how will I found out without taking that step? I've decided I want to move out next year. Yes, it will take a lot of planning and budgeting for sure, but I know it's something I want to do. I've been praying about it and that the Lord guide my steps. He's definitely doing so. He's already beginning to show me different things that will benefit for next year. God's very smart. He knows what He's doing and He will absolutely out you on the right path. Everything He puts in your path is to grow and strengthen your for your future. What I want you to hear is, don't give up. I really feel like the Lord is putting "Don't give up" on my heart for some people. Whether you even read this or just click on the link, do not give up. Every trial, every rough patch, every joyful moment, is shaping you for tomorrow. Do not give up now. Keep going. He will hold you up.

Earlier today my mom said something that kind of jumped out at me. She mentioned something in Habakkuk 3. But Habakkuk 3 wasn't what spoke to me. It was Habakkuk. So, me being who I am, I went to Habakkuk to see what God was trying to tell me. I start reading in the first chapter and found something I had underlined a while back ago. It was in verse 5 of chapter one and it said "Look around at the godless nations. Look long and hard. Brace yourself for a shock. Something's about to take place, and you're going to find it hard to believe." Hello! That was a hit to the face. I'm about to be a senior in high school and all of my friends and myself have a huge desire for this year. A couple of my friends have encountered some situations where they were either thinking about moving schools, or were moving schools. All God. Talk about a leap of faith, right? But, that's just a small step for God. He sees everything and just sees those huge leaps of faith as tiny steps for His glory. God has called us to be the light for our schools. He has put a strong desire on all of our hearts to change our schools. And I not only think it will happen, but I know something HUGE is going to happen for His kingdom this school year. With the accountability from my other senior friends, we're going to shake His kingdom big time. I've been just sitting here for so long I can't take it anymore. I didn't know how I could before, but now I'm ready to rock it. I pray that not only do my friends and I be the light in our schools, but that all seniors realize they are looked up to. But not only juniors who watch their every move because next year they're it, but this incoming freshman. High school is scary for your first year! I knew I was overwhelmed! But are you going to sit there and laugh and an incoming freshman feeling lost or alone? No! Hello!? Would you want that? I don't think so. There is a revolution for God's kingdom coming this school year. I can't contain my excitement!!! There is not only going to be God's children coming home, but freedom from bondage that students never thought they would feel free from. There will be restoration, healing, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Chains will be broke. And the enemy will RUN when every single student wakes up. Because he's already defeated, but he will be even more so. I don't know if that's even possible, but with God all things are possible so I'm still shooting for it. I also encourage some of you struggling with waiting and when the next step will come. Habakkuk 2:3 says "This vision is for a future time. It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed." How comforting is that? Whether it be the end of the wilderness for you, the end of a season, the end of a specific part of your walk God is taking you on, or the end of time, God says in His word it will be fulfilled. And He says, also, it will NOT be delayed. Be world changers. Be His light and salt.

Alright, let me just say, God is way cooler than we give Him credit for. I admit, it's been a while since I have posted, but it's all in His timing, right? This summer God has really started to transform my heart. He has done things and grown me in ways I didn't even know were possible. Two months ago, I never would have thought I'd be this far in my walk with Him. Last night I heard a message from Eileen Hunter and man was she on fire. She talked about going from "Lame to Lethal" for God. How cool would it be to feel dangerous for God:)? She mentioned right when you wake up the enemy scurries because he's thinking "Oh no...here he or she goes again. She's awake and she's on fire." Hello?! I'm in!! Something my mom has told me lately is really listen to God for today, and tomorrow will work out. How true is that? Lemme tell ya, God has rocked my world. I have been sitting on a still roller coaster for Him. I'm SO tired of just sitting there!!! I'm ready for Him to ROCK my world. And lemme tell ya, He has. I really pray that people just spend time with Him. I spent five minutes listening to worship music before I got out of bed on day. It made all the difference. He's not asking for 6 hours! Although, that's how it should be. We sit there and think "I just have to spend an hour with Him then I get the rest if the day." Hello!? It should be the other way around! He should get 23 hours of our day and we have the other hour. After all, outlives are HIS. Just saying'. I'm back bloggin y'all. And I have so much on my heart I can't wait to share.

What a new journey. Junior year. Nuff said. It's only been a week and 2 days and I already feel like my head is going to explode. The work is crazy, everything matters more now than it did ever. It sometimes feels like I have more work than some of the seniors do. Crazy right? But, you know what, part of me actually doesn't mind it. Now THAT sounds crazy, huh? It's challenging me. Giving me that responsibility to manage my time, get my work done, etc. Once I start working it'll be even more of a responsibility. It's getting me really excited for going to college. I mean right now I'm sitting at Starbucks, supposed to be(:, working on homework. Ha! I could so get used to this. All you people that have already been through highschool know exactly what I'm talking about. Those of you who are on this journey with me, let's do it. Together. It's not forever, even though it may feel like it, lol. God knows it's hard. He didn't make it easy. What would be the point in learning from our mistakes and becoming a better person if it was? Ten points for God for that! Junior year has also taught me how to lean on Him more. I mean it's a small thing, but when I get overwhelmed I just ask, no I beg, for God to give me peace. He does(: He listens to even the smallest of things. Being a teenager can really teach us a lot. The good and the bad. But, no matter what it does, it shapes who we're going to be when we're older. Even if you're the complete opposite than who you were in highschool, you still learned how you didn't want to be. Am I right? One piece of advice I want to give, even though it seems obvious, is whenever things just get so chaotic, open the Bible to some random page and just start reading. God will know what you need to hear at that exact moment. Like I said it seems obvious, but how many of us actually do that? We say we do. But are we actually relying on His word to give us comfort. Or something else? God and I have pretty awesome conversations. We talk Kailyn-style. It's pretty funny if you actually happen to listen to me. I basically speak whatever is on my mind. He already knows what I'm thinking so why not say it? He wants to hear me say it. It's like if someone does something wrong. You know in your heart that they are truly sorry. But you want to hear it. Nothing is settled until the words are spoken. Same with God. He knows what we're going to say or what we're feeling. But, He wants us to say it. In the Bible it talks about confessing with our mouth that Jesus is Lord. Well why not confess everything else? He already knows, so you might as well just say it. Even though I feel like I ramble sometimes on here I know it's for a purpose that I started blogging. Someone out there needs this as much as I do. Someone out there will be able to relate in some way or another and they'll think, "I'm not alone." No. You most certainly are NOT alone. Because not only am I here, but Jesus is here. He's listening to you and He loves you. Don't ever forget that.

"Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening? God doesn't come and go. God lasts. He's Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." -Isaiah 40:28-31. "Like a sheperd, he will care for his flock, gathering the lambs in his arms, Hugging them as he carries them, leading the nursing ewes to good pasture." -Isaiah 40:11 GOD CARES!!!! He isn't just leaving you in the dust to deal with your problems by yourself. He's there! I promise. If you can't believe that promise believe His. Isaiah 54 talks about how God didn't send these troubles to you. "I create the blacksmith who fires up his forge and makes a weapon designed to kill. I also create the destroyer-but no weapon that can hut you has ever been forged." verses 16 and part of 17. Written/spoken truth that He is for YOU. Not the enemy. He cares for YOU. He doesn't want you to hurt. That isn't His path! But He can heal those who hurt. He can strength those who are weak. And He will. That famous quote, "Don't fall for someone unless you know they are willing to catch you." We can all say, that at some point in our lives we "thought" someone caught us. God catches us every time. No matter how many times we fall. And He not only catches us, but He puts us back on our knees. And full of His mercy. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. If you want the truth, look in His word. He'll always tell you the truth.

Summer getting close to being over and I am just now starting to have fun. Better late than never, right(;? Right now I'm in Arkansas chillin' with family here, Thursday I get my license, and Sunday I leave for Tennessee. I have the most fun with my family and right now I couldn't ask for a better summer. Yes, it was slow at first, but I had a lot of time to spend with family and I love spending time with them. They mean the world to me and I'm so blessed to have them in my life. I never take one moment for granted with them. Or at least I try my hardest. No ones perfect and I know all of us teenagers don't always want to love our family. But we look at them and think, "They made me who I am. Why would I not want to be with them."

She grew up with one thing on her mind. Her Daddy had her set for life, always the lovin kind. He taught her well, he taught her young. Always learned to bite her tongue. He was her best friend. Always smiling at the end.

She’s got her Daddy’s eyes and his thoughts fill her mind.

She sure acts like him, and boy can her temper rise.

She’s got her Momma’s sweet side and her gentle heart.

But set her off, and you’ll wanna get a head start.

One early morning she wakes with flashes of red and white. She can’t help but shake the fright. Sounds around only at a whisper, everything she sees at a blur. Her Daddy on the ground and her Momma cryin. Her thoughts spinning and emotions in a stir.

She’s got her Daddy’s eyes and his thoughts fill her mind.

She sure acts like him, and boy can her temper rise.

She’s got her Momma’s sweet side and her gentle heart.

But set her off, and you’ll wanna get a head start.

She dreams of him. He stands in the corner, where the light is dim. Her heart aches with pain. Keeping in mind strength is what she can gain. He took part of her with him, when he went home to Jesus. Leavin space to fill the empty creases.

She’s got her Daddy’s eyes and his thoughts fill her mind.

She sure acts like him, and boy can her temper rise.

She’s got her Momma’s sweet side and her gentle heart.

But set her off, and you’ll wanna get a head start.

She always hears his voice. She knows it’s God talking. Her Daddy still has her heart. With the rain falling against her skin she knows she’s never alone. Daddy’s right there with her to play in the raindrops he rides down that fall.