I'm not a political person.  I don't really follow what all the commotion is about.  I just have my beliefs and when the time comes to vote, I'll ask God who He wants me to vote for.  But there is one thing that has bothered me for a little while.  Whether you agree with what's going on or not and the decisions that have been made, they've happened.  And in my personal opinion, putting someone down and judging them on a social network isn't the best way to handle it.  We're put on this earth to encourage people.  Bring out the best in them.  No matter who they are, bringing them down and discouraging them in such a way doesn't reflect well on character.  You can completely disagree with what I'm saying and think "She doesn't even pay attention to politics, who is she to say it's wrong or right?"I'm just expressing my opinion as well as the rest.  I'm not writing this to place my stamp on my political side and say who's right and wrong.  But as light to a broken and darkened world, who are we to talk crap about something that's not even in our control? Again, I'm not pointing anyone or anything out and calling names, but think about what you say or do to someone on the social media.  Regardless of if they're ever going to read it or not.  It's not about "What they don't know/see won't hurt them."  It's about "Who are you when no one is looking?"

God's Little Blessings

Today little things have gotten me down. I don't know why, but I have just had this uncomfortable feel in the pit of my stomach. I went to Walgreens on my way to work to get a small gift for a coworker and while I was in line, God gave me a blessing. This little girl, I'd say about 11 or so, bluntly asked "Do you get to live by yourself?" I told her not yet I still have to save up money. She asks "Did you go to college?" "I'm in college." "Lucky.." I told her to enjoy being young. She said "Are you a hair cutter? Your hair is pretty." "Haha nope." "Doctor?" "Haha no sweetie I work at a jewelry story and a church." With a big smile she says "Ahhh. Lucky..." again I told her to enjoy her youth and being a child. What she didn't know what that she was a huge blessing to me. With all the little issues pulling me down today, I saw the innocence of childhood and what a huge impact we adult have on their lives. She was sweet as can be and if I could, I'd talk to her every week about how being a kid is once of the greatest things ever. We don't realize what'd around us sometimes. I believe God puts little blessings in our paths everyday. Some are just so small He wants us to seek out the greatness of each day rather than spend it sad. Take some time today and step back. Look at everything He has blessed you with. You never know when you could be someone else's blessing by simply seeing what's in front of you.

God's Morning Glory

5:53 AM:  Good morning Darlin's.  Last night I was laying in bed and thinking of a perfect date with some amazing guy that God brings into my life, as I do probably more than you'd think.  (Hopeless romantic:))  What I didn't know was that was only the beginning of the next 12 hours.  As some of you probably know, I am NOT a morning person.  Farthest thing from it.  But when the Lord wakes me up and asks me if He can go on a date with me this morning, any and everything gets thrown out of the water for that honor.  This pleasant morning He woke me up at 4:30. Ish.  After fighting Him for about 30-45 minutes, I finally said, "Okay, Lord.  I'm up.  But I'm going to be honest with you, I am tired.  And my bed is comfy, and my room is cold.  Making me even more tired.  But I want to be awake with You.  Please give me the strength so I can be." And what does His ever so loving voice say? "Wanna watch the surmise together?"  I was up quicker then a squirrel on caffeine.  I am currently sitting on my driveway with my computer, bible, pen, and journal on a blanket.  The stars are as beautiful as ever.  I have never experience the morning like this, and I'm sure it won't be the last.  Oh, I'm also listening to worship music:) (what could get any better than this right?!)  Me being the curious and antsy person I am, I was curious as to what time the sun actually rises this morning.  6:58 AM.  At first I was like "Really?!"  But then I heard this gentle voice say, "I just wanted to have you to myself for a bit before we got to the fireworks."  How can you resist that?! Sitting here for a little over an hour in the dark is SO worth it.  Even without all the accessories I brought out with me.  If it was just Him and I, I'd be just as happy.  It's incredible to watch how the sky changes throughout time.  Especially in the morning.  It's not something everyone can say on a daily basis.  If you haven't done it, I highly suggest it.  Expected Sunrise: 6:58 AM according to Google.



6:20 AM:  The sky is slowly but surely getting bluer.  It's coming.  I've moved spots like 3 different times trying to get the best seat.  I have even considered going on the roof.  But for my mother's sake, I'm staying on the ground.  For now.  The roof may happen at another time though.  Momma that was for you so you'd know.

6:29 AM:  You know when you look at the city from a far distance and it almost looks like a painting? Or just a picture? Same thing now.  The shades of blue on the horizon and darker as you look towards the west, the clouds and their different shapes, the trees that almost look like silhouettes, the tiny bit of yellows and oranges beginning to peak and form at the basis of the light blue.  Beautiful is an understatement.


6:40 AM: This tops ANY date I ever have gone on and ever will go on.

6:50 AM:  What is more beautiful then His glory?

6:58 AM:   Goodmorning!!!!!:)<3 a="a" am="am" and="and" anything="anything" as="as" be="be" being="being" did.="did." difference="difference" distant="distant" e="e" everything.="everything." focus="focus" getting="getting" god="god" had="had" he="he" heaven="heaven" him="him" i="i" in="in" is="is" it:="it:" it="it" ith="ith" just="just" know="know" laughed.="laughed." likes="likes" love="love" make="make" many="many" matter="matter" mind="mind" morning="morning" my="my" n="n" nbsp="nbsp" negative="negative" not="not" of="of" ome="ome" on="on" p="p" person="person" realized="realized" say="say" seriously.="seriously." simple="simple" so="so" something="something" sometimes="sometimes" start="start" sunrise="sunrise" sure="sure" t="t" that="that" the="the" things="things" this="this" thought.="thought." time:="time:" to="to" used="used" ut="ut" ve="ve" watching="watching" well="well" who="who" why="why" with="with" won="won" would="would" you="you">

Sunrise: 6:58 AM.

God's been wooing me for the past couple of days, but theism morning it's like he popped the question.  He speaks to us and does things through us and romances us in ways that we understand and relate to.  For me, that's the cheesy, but cute little comments that make me blush, unforgettable moments like watching the sun rise and songs that speak to me.  He has pursued me in all of those areas.  For other it could be words of affirmation or feeling the touch of His grace.  Either way, He's pursuing us with an unending love that will literally blow you away.  He is a jealous God.  And longs for our hearts.  I pray those of you that needed to hear this today, do.  And I pray for those that are on fire to burn even brighter.
"Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever." Psalm 23:6

The Lord just put something on my heart.  I'm watching the movie Fireproof and the song called "While I'm Waiting" came on.  I thought it was amazing how God reminded me of this song today.  Especially after what I posted earlier.  But I felt something more.  It wasn't just a reminder for me.  It's a reminder for you too.  Whatever you're waiting on, WHATEVER it is, God hasn't ignored you.  He's still there.  He's listening and though you may think time is numb and nothing is happening, it is.  Jus be patient.  I promise everything will fall into place.  I pray these words will help you just has much as they have helped me tonight.  Stay strong, precious child.  He hears you and is with you.


I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it's not easy no, but faithfully I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/john_waller/while_im_waiting.html ]
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait

I will move ahead bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yeah

While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint

And I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You Lord

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/john_waller/#share

-While I'm Waiting by John Waller

Remember back in July when I had talked about being God's princess?  And how at some point we all struggle with the "OMG WHERE IS HE ALREADY?!" question?  Well, today is one of those days for me.  It hits at random times and not in a bad way.  It almost make me laugh!  Actually, it DOES make me laugh!  Sometimes I wonder, why in the world am I so worried about this?  First of all, God is SO in charge and He will not NEVER back down on a promise that He has given me, or anybody else.  And Second, I'm still young.  Very young.  I haven't even hit 20 yet why is this even such a big deal?  I should be more focused on college, right?  Yes, but it's still there, lol.  Last night I remembered at my kindergarden graduation as we 'walked across the stage' we had to say what we wanted to be when we grew up, and what did I say? "When I grow up, I want to be a mommy." I still remember the pregnant lady in the front row about lose it.  Things haven't changed.  I have such a big desire to be a wife and mom that you'd almost think my dream job is to be a stay at home mom! In a way it is, but it goes beyond that.  If there was a school called "Future wife and moms in the making university" I'd be there in a heart beat.  But as I said a while back ago, God is in control.  He's got me (just like He's got YOU) in the palm of His hands.  Romans 2:28 says He will work everything out for our good.  That's not only a promise, but it's truth and a declaration that we have the most incredible God who can do ALL things who also is so deeply in love with us, we can't even bare it.  But that's also why we have Him:)

Future husband,
I pray for you and think about you everyday.  Whether you're reading this or not, I am.  I pray God gives you provision and guidance.  That He's directing your steps and that you're making the right decisions.  Wherever you are, I pray for your safety and for those around you.  Don't ever let anyone tell you you're less than amazing because God has called you for miraculous things. (that goes for EVERYONE out there not just my future husband. God has called YOU so get up and go!)

Ladies, the wait is worth it.
Men, the wait is worth it.

God's strength and grace is upon us all for the things we cannot do.  And He is with us every second of the day.  Especially the ones we don't think we can make it through.

Well friends, I am so close. So, very close.  But I'm not there yet.  I am registered for classes and start in 20 days.  I have no idea why I've always been on of those huge dreamers about my future, but God sure does.  And in a matter of 3 weeks, one of those dreams will finally come true.  It feels so surreal.  This is where it begins.  The chapter in life where I start to leave the nest, I gain all this responsibility (that I'm strangely excited for:)), and start my life.  My journey.  Everything that has lead up to this very moment has made me who I am.  I do not regret one bit of it.  Some days I can't wrap my mind around it.  It still almost feels like a dream.   Everyone has already stated school.  All of my college friends, m younger friends, my siblings, public school, high school, everyone has started this new year.  Except my TKUG friends and me.  The next 3 weeks will fly by and drag on all at the same time.  I pray that things go smoothly.  I have this vision, this dream, in my head of how I want, hope, things will go and I know they'll go exactly how God wants them.  Which isn't always how I want them to go, but it'll be right.  Because He's in control.  I am taking the classes I wanted to take the moment I saw them on the course schedule.  My weekly schedule isn't crammed, my work schedule works perfectly with it, everything is falling into place.  God....man, He's just incredible.  I am blessed beyond understanding.  I have no words other than thank you.  To everyone, but most importantly to Him.  Other dreams I pray to come true soon are still there.  Ha, very much so.  But college is proof that God makes our dreams come true.  At least the right dreams:).  It's just crazy to think my life and journey of adulthood and everything after that is start in 3 weeks.  I am nervous and excited all at the same time.

Curveballs

Life is hard.  And full of curveballs.  Unfortunately, we never know when those curveballs are headed our way.  But without those curveballs, we'd never appreciate the good times.  Don't ever let anyone tell you you can't be sad or cry or have bad days.  That is probably one of the biggest lies ever.  After going through a tragedy, random little things trigger that emotional hurricane that comes over you.  As time goes by, it becomes less often, but it never goes away.  And I think God does that for a reason.  If you're hurting, hurt.  Don't fake a smile and cover it up.  Be the real you.  Let it out.  That was probably the best advice anyone ever gave me three years ago.  So now I'm saying it to you.  Don't hide what's inside to be strong.  Real strength comes from growing through the pain and letting others in to help you with that.  Be YOU.  And just let it out every once in a while.